If I hold my breath long enough
will time be frozen and dissolve?
Why does my heart tremble at the unexpected?
Shall I run away, bury myself in self-pity,
hiding in the darkness where no one can find me?
I look out at black forest canopy silhouettes
and wonder if they are a mirror of my soul
like cut paper glued on a silver sky
Oh, the fear of feeling trapped with no escape
and the reaper looming at the door
eager to harvest my last ray of hope
that quickly fades as the next attack of ego falls
from a sky of jealously and greed
Tick-tock, tick-tock, I count the moments
I feel the despair within that eats my mind
I run deeper into the maze of stagnant air
and imagine ways to escape from myself
My mind screams, ‘no turning back, no way out’
Exhaustion overwhelms me and I collapse
into disturbed restlessness, surrendered
My nightmare fades with the subtle colors of pre-dawn
Sun’s deep red orb marks another day
Breaking through clouds awareness flows
into the vessel of my empty shell
Carved out by my suffering
and raised up by your love
How could I fall into despair
with so much beauty at my doorstep?
Blinded by my own ignorance and amnesia
I look around, gobsmacked by the miracle of life
Subtle voices whisper, ‘remember, remember what you are’
I reach out with nimble fingers for memory threads
slowly re-weaving the cloth of my being
before I arrived, beyond all form, out-of-time
Concepts my mind cannot grasp
forcing me to let go into the dark stillness within
I rest and release my need to understand
allowing universal intelligence to soak into my pores
My boundaries drop away as I melt into the river of energy
forever flowing through and around me
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